My Wish

     There is this new song that I just love by Heather Headley called, "I Wish".  It's about wanting to give someone you love everything you can and protect them from all of the hard stuff.  It's about understanding that people have to go through the hard times, the obstacles...because that's how you learn to overcome and grow as a person. 
     There are so many wonderful lines...  "I wish you rainy days so you can know the beauty of a clear blue sky"        "I wish you just enough Hellos, to get you through Goodbyes"        "I hope you always see the forest through the trees"        "This is your life, this is your story and when all is said and done, I hope you live with no regrets"
     I listen to this song everytime I log onto Facebook because it istantly pulls things back into perspective for me.  I understand that I can't protect these kids that I worry so much about.  Life can be so hard, but when you pull yourself through that, and make it to the other side...you get stronger and you are more prepared for whatever else life brings your way.  I am grateful for my storms that made me so strong.  I am also so grateful to have a mom that was such a strong anchor during all of those times.  Even in the hardest of my teenage years, when my mom ahd no idea how to help me through the things I was going through....I always knew I could go to her and she would hug me and listen....or just change the subject and help me aviod....whatever I needed, that's what she gave me.  I realize that you can't give kids everything, and you can't stop life from happening to them.  Each of us have to live our own life, and learn by doing, by failing, by getting knocked down, and by getting back up again.  They are important lessons that cannot be skipped if we are to become strong adults.  All we can do is hug on our kids, love them, and give them as much support as we can, so that when the tide gets too high, or they lose their path......we can hold on just long enough that they can catch their breath and find their way again.
      I would be miserable as a parent.  I can say these things, but my heart is not made to sit back and watch people that I love hurting and not step in to help.  I have an overdeveloped superhero complex, and I struggle so much with staying back and letting things unfold in their own way and their own time.  I am so grateful to have had a mom who held on tight, but never held me back.  I cannot imagine what that must have cost her....the tears, the worry, .....she is so much stronger than I could ever be.