Sometimes I just make up a catchy title and then start from there :) Well, it's been quite awhile since I've added an entry, so I thought it was time. After my last enttry, someone e-mailed me and said some pretty hurtful things. Another person was trying to be reassuring, and said, " You are such a nice person, if only you hadn't been so mean as a kid " Heraing that, hit even harder than the other person's intentional jabs. I tried to shake it, but it hit deep, and then my walls went even higher. I like to think I'm past allowing other people's interpretation of my past affect me, but I am not. Words matter, and as much as I wish I knew how to stop it, I think I am always going to have this hidden desire to be liked and understood. But here's the thing... I like me... I like who I was as a child, as a teenager, and who I am now as an adult. If you don't, then feel free to stay away and stop reading my blog :)
So, back to jellybeans! Did you know that at the JellyBelly factory they take you on a train and show you how they are made.... then you get to go into this candy workshop and try as many odd flavored jellybeans as you want! It was amazing :) I tried Bacon, Squash, and Vomit flavors! Disgusting, I know, but it makes for great storytelling!
Today is Friday the 13th. I remember how exciting that used to be when I was in school. Every teacher would comment on it, and kids were all giggly at every bad thing because they were sure it was a curse! But today, it was a pretty good day. Mom and I worked out the bills, I went with all the aunts to the movies, and then I sat at Zoup and read a magazine. A good day. Obviously I don't believe that a certain date can bring problems any more than I believe a bunch of sevens lines up will bring me luck. But still, it's fun to attach holidays to random days.... it gives you something to talk about :)
Alright, this was definately my most uninteresting entry, but I plan on using this site again, so some days will just be me rambling. For now, I'm off to watch some television!
